Monday Weigh-In (Wednesday edition)

Last week's weight — 125.5 pounds
This week's weight — 125.5 pounds

Ugh, well, at least I didn't gain anything this week, the way I've been eating. I know, I know, too much information, but that time of the month started in earnest on Friday and I just lost myself in a downward spiral of ice cream, chocolate and those notorious graham crackers. I seriously couldn't stop myself! But obviously I did manage to exert some semblance of self-control and that's why I held steady this week instead of gaining any more weight.

I did some research on the weight watchers website and discovered that now, at 125.5 pounds, I should only be eating 19 points a day instead of 20 if I want to continue to lose weight. Ack! I've been having so much trouble keeping myself confined to 20 points though! I swear, sometimes I just want to give in and eat the way I used to — without thinking about it. I'm tired of constantly checking the nutritional info and deciding whether eating a snack with 4 grams of fat is really worth it to me, or if I should just go eat some carrot sticks. I'm tired of carrot sticks!

I feel like the hardest part of this healthy eating endeavor should be behind me, that I should have been having these feelings 15 pounds ago. I'm so near to my goal that I feel like I ought to feel energized and ready to give that last ounce of effort to making it. I think though, that it's exactly BECAUSE I'm so near to my goal. After that, all I've got left to look forward to is a lifetime of watching what I eat. Decades of eating carrot sticks. Sigh.